You’re at a meeting.You present an idea. Nobody notices.
Five minutes later, “Brad” offers the same idea with slightly different wording. Everyone is wowed.
Inside you are so freaking irritated. Your workplace is supposed to be progressive,that’s part of why you took this job. But this kind of bullsh!t is always happening.
Normally you roll your eyes internallyand say nothing. This time, you CANNOT help yourself.
“Yeah, that’s a great idea Brad,” you snap.“And it was a great idea when I suggested it five minutes ago. And it was a great idea when my team did a presentation about it last spring.”
The room goes quiet. After an extremely awkward pause,your coworkers slowly go back to the discussion.
Your face is hot. Your armpits are sweaty.You wait what seems like a decent intervaland then go to the restroom.
All the way down the hall, you’re berating yourself.
“Why did I do that? Why did I do it THAT WAY?It’s not like I’m in the wrong. I need to stand up for myself.But that felt terrible!But what else could I have done?”
And on and on, all through the rest of the day.
Your punishing inner voice doesn’t give it a resttill you’re in front of the TV with a glass of wineat like 9:00 that night.
My beloved Friend,First, let’s acknowledge:This kind of thing is indeed bullshit. We live in a whyte supremacist heteronormative ableist patriarchy,and people with marginalized identities are constantly exposed to this.
Next, let’s talk about a specific part of the story.The part where your punishing inner voiceberates you for saying what you said.
When that punishing inner voice gets started, you can’t do anything right.Have you noticed that?
That voice will say, speaking up is wrong. But being silent IS ALSO WRONG.No matter what you do, YOU’RE WRONG.
Know that this pattern of berating ourselvesis JUST AS MUCH a part of patriarchyas the original incident in the meeting.
Would you like to get that sh!tty voice out of your head?
Yeah, I thought so.
/// Coaching helps. ///
No, coaching will not eradicate the enormous systems of oppression that insidiously permeate pretty muchevery part of American life.
But coaching can give you tools to help you begin to push back against those punishing thoughts.
Because there are many battlegroundsin American life. And one of the most important–perhaps THE most important–is between your ears.
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